It's very simple when I calm down and I'm not so worked up thinking about it.
My best, best, best friend Kristen started dating this super dark black guy named Serek four years ago and in November of 2010 she got pregnant. This is my closest friend I want to point out and we have been friends since Junior Kindergarten.
Kristen Our friend Emily Me
I was dating this really cute blond guy until about April of 2011 and so my perverted mind was directed at him. Like role playing and fantasy stuff. We broke up in April and after we broke up I didn't feel like dating right away and just enjoyed being single.
All that time I was single I never really paid any attention to Kristen's relationship.
On July 12th, 2011 Kristen and I were sorting out stuff for the baby's room when her water broke. I totally didn't know what to do but knew we had to get to the hospital. Serek was working at the time so her mother had to drive us there. We got there and within minutes she was on the delivery chair. Kristen demanded that I stay with her through the entire delivery and especially until Serek came. It was a huge turn on for me so I agreed right away. Serek showed up within the hour that we got there. It was about two hours later that she really started to birth the beautiful thing.
Here's where my fascination and everything else started:
I was standing by the foot of the bed when the baby's head started to show.
It was at that very moment that I saw her baby's head that I got that warm rush feeling you get when you're embarrassed. I got this tingling feeling in my clit and I could feel I was starting to get wet like really quickly. Kristen is really pale and the baby's head was dark. The baby became darker once the Melanin fully developed but it looked darker cause of her body. The contrast was so arousing to me.
So I watched this beautiful mixed baby being pushed out of Kristen's body and it turned me on so much I thought I was going to scream. I thought of just how much I loved everything about their relationship all of a sudden. I wanted that too.
The baby spread her so wide it was unbelievable. Her screams and moaning just made me even more enthralled in her situation, I thought I was going to faint.
The baby was born after 4 hours, Kristen was barely strong enough to hold the baby and when she did she cried with joy, a happiness I don't think I had seen. I stayed for another half an hour or so and then I left. Planning to return the next day.
When I got home I literally spent two hours on my computer looking up everything I could find about interracial sex, pregnancy, birth and everything else related. I came so many times I had to sit on 4 different towels. Thank goodness my parents weren't home and I was able to clean and wash everything once I calmed down. I had never been so turned on before. I was biting the blanket I had wrapped around me and couldn't do anything but push my fingers in and out of my body because my clit was way too sensitive after the first 40 minutes or so. I was so frustrated that I didn't have a guy there to fill me up. It made me really regret that I didn't start dating right away after my ex and I broke up. But someone like my ex wouldn't have worked. I was immersed in my new ideal. I knew I wanted a black boyfriend. I don't care if porn is very biased or fabricated to portray unrealistic things (I'll explain later why I don't think that is always so), I was curious. It's that simple, I wanted to see if black men were different.
I told Kristen (who knew of my obsession with pregnancy, and many other personal things), that seeing her give birth had done something to me. I told her she had to help me find a boyfriend who was as black or darker than Serek and she was very happy to. So since then I've been with my boyfriend and I love every single thing about it.
Stay tuned for entry 2.
